Free Expression

She impressed her reasoning
on my conscious

Exploratory me
proceeded to breakdown
the conscious slash / reasoning
meet and greet

Am I free to speak?

Wondering the time frame
for the unexpected Promotion of feelings
conditional social strategies
predicting when falling is…

…Allowed

Somehow i had a plan of
predetermined precursors
passing points pointing out
what i thought love was

If it came in the first ten minutes of conversation
or
the first ten years of sharing space in a so called friend equation

What's the difference?

Means to express what
this anomaly beating my chest means
Freezes on thoughts like frigid nights
meaning I'm way past like..

Like, describes hobbies and food

This is not how i describe you...


Longing for nights
Liberating dreams trapped in daylight
released into an audible stream
connected to you and me

I relish these things...

I LOVE those things...

.that's how i describe you.

10 Things

1 bar
Long Island Iced Tea
At the
South Street Seaport
Outdoors
2nd floor
We’ve had 3 dates
this month
I’m waiting on the call
For
Number 4 to jump off
It’s 5 in the evening
I’m here slow sipping
Dinner reservations
At 6
7 sips later
I’m flagging
The bartender
8 glances at my watch
On the 9th
I get a call
Baby I’m running
10 minutes late

*After all day…I guess I can wait*

"So Moody"

This is that
Smooth
Yet

Beautiful... existing...warm noise
Poised to carry my soul into
The Light

Gentle Breeze
Summertime
Ivory keys...playing on ...melodic feelings

Acoustics... strumming... sentiments
As
I lean
on the wheel
Gently

Windows rolled down
Careful not to
Move beyond five miles per hour

My soulful sense
Dispensed from lowered
Windows
Peeling tint
Just a
Product of this mood that I'm in

This is that

Captivating
Yet
Stiletto
Six inch height
Calves
Carved muscle
Mass

Bite my lip
Step by step
Written
Into my past
As
Sexual
Stimulation
Beyond
My fixation
On her

A.S.S

Listen - Shhhhhh

Pen meets
Paper
Thoughts
Sound like
Morning
Meets night
Birds sing
Outside
Illuminated
By
These words we write

This is life

Blues
Collide
With
Funk
Sparking
Spawning
Liberal attitudes
Staining
Dark skies
With
Provisional Contextual Sunlight

Caution to
Wind
Often prevents
This absurd
Suggestion that
I’m in this to win

Not at all

It's just a reflection of this mood that I’m in

Hide and seek

She be, everything

Everything that I compiled in a dream

Wandering

Lonely type, crossing off  - lifes  - likes and dislikes

Making my aura ripple

…Cause and effect

.

I

.

Stand in stolen moments

Hoping to be accosted by justice

And I won’t seek your mercy

This I promise… Damn Ms.

.

 Windsor knots overlap with time

Meaning every morning

Before work,  I’m, running behind..

Daydreams begin when I open my eyes

.

Focus is impossible

Because of beautiful you

Silhouetted against the intrusive sun beams

Leaves less space for me to breathe

.

And

.

Catching my breath takes time

.

Funny thing is

It’s so not my style to

Reveal the reason for my smile

I’d rather coax computer keys into speaking for me

Written explanations and portions of me

The confused mans version of poetry

My perverted means to exhale my misery

.
She has me

Leaving the house minus the keys

Locking the door forgetting my coffee

.

Wait.. stop.. breathe..

What the fuck just happened?

My life was infused with

Text messages and thoughts

That, move me

Like scenes from a movie

Has me

Motionless and holding cards close to my vest

.

This, this is where my head’s at

As I run into the turnstile

Still daydreaming

Still caught in a self motivated coaching session

.

I won’t be bested!

.

Hold on, my phone is vibrating

You have one new message

.

Damn, this is some bullshit, lol

Could Be

Could be… that the thoughts were

Transmitted via osmosis

DVR’d emotions replayed in slow motion

I love this shit

I never felt her skin

But would often pretend to be in the know

Midnight writes by candlelight and takeout

My space being  heated by the stove

That’s how real it is..

Words flow effortlessly

Seldom leaving thoughts incomplete

…Walk with me

Hold on… I need pinky to pinky connectivity

Could be…  that the connection made

Evolved over conversations woven together by

Happenstance – word play – and verbal foreplay

Wait..

When my pen curves characters by her design

And

When submissions become conditions of my heart

Cocooned in pieces Breaching lines when maturity is reached

…. There’s something to be said

I see the world through your eyes

Writes became fluid forms of, we..

Divisible portions of me carried the same form of speak

….life is love

…love is poetry

Could be…

Courage...

I just met courage...

She be ... filled with estrogen
developed strength, from
wisdom passed down from the heavens

instilled in her family lineage
given the privileged
she provided me glimpses
into the
miracles

or

at least

Wondrous [Pre - Views]

Superhero status

The Baddest... Most outstanding... Physical apparatus
I've ever seen before
I mean, Fuck swagger
character was key
bench pressing life
effortlessly
impressing me with every step taken
in the dark as if she walked
the distance of this countries
highways and Bi-ways

Eyes closed

Yeah...and i would follow

See... She Be

Ancestry revisited
with unobstructed visions
of what's to be

.if.

we make it what we want

Courage, casting shadows
of comforting conversions of cowardice
if it wasn't sure before...

i assure you, now it is...

She be... My hero...

I'm in awe of, Courage...

In love with the New-ness of it all --- My Opinion

When I think about it, I think that I fall for the reaction that I get from a sarcastic comment. That’s not to say that the style of dress and straight teeth don’t come into play… They  absolutely do! lol.. I’m talking about the first of many ‘first’ and the eager anticipation that we have for yet another, well, first. Let’s take it a step further, Let’s talk about the first encounter and the first time that you caught yourself wandering into an involuntary thought about that person and it forced an untimed smile. Remember that?  That thought was provoked by a back and forth debate about opened toed shoes and when they’re in season, or something nonsensical like that. I know for sure that would have been my topic of choice…lol. These first are pieces of history that’s being created in the moment. These moments come from plans that were sketched out in our minds and played in reverse because we ALL know it never happens the way that we want it to.

Relationships that last beyond the ‘first’ are to be treasured. So often, I find that the ‘first’ are just a camouflage for the true lack of effort or over dressed products of relationship gamesmanship. A quick for instance, you meet your mate in the club, She has on $500.00 shoes $1000.00 bag, we won’t address the outfit because I’m finding that more often women will bargain hunt for that. Getting back to my point, the outfit is a trap. It wasn’t put together to look good, it’s to promote a false status. This is to boost the king of ‘first’. The first impression! Ladies, don’t take it the wrong way, guys front hard-body too! I just can’t expose all of the secrets, I’m a guy..lol.

Getting back to my original thought.. when we reflect on past relationships, we often reflect on the first time we saw a movie together, first time we woke up together, spent the night.. in some cases the first time we got caught seeking the FIRST feeling again (cheating) lol…

The gist of  it is.. First are like orgasms, we love to have them. Making them 'last' (such irony) is the challenge.